Is it just me, or is this whole adult thing way overrated? I mean – we work, we eat, we sleep, we get up, we eat, we work, we eat again, then sleep again. What a rat race.
I picture my own little world as a snow globe. Just when things settle down, and the family gets in a routine, things are going great – wham! Someone has to go and shake it all up again.
And then I give them my grumpy face and pick myself back up and keep on keeping on, as we work to get the dust settled again.
Today I feel like I’m being pulled into a million directions – all of which NEED me, whether it is my children or Paul, or my “real job” that I work full time, or blogging here at DDD, and then there’s that Disney World vacation we’re going on next week and my family has just been dealt another huge blow that just takes my snow globe and shakes it like Darla in Finding Nemo. Ugh.
This next week I am focusing on a few things – or trying to. It’s a work in progress. I am by no means a motivational speaker, but I DO know there are some things I need to stop doing right this instant.
I need to quit trying to control things that are out of my control.
SO MUCH THIS!
Part of my personality is to control everything (and yes, my way is always the best way, just ask Paul – 😐 ). I need to remember that things happen, LIFE happens and if it were easy it wouldn’t be fun. Or something like that.
I need to quit comparing myself to others. Whether that’s with this little ol blog that we run, or that Disney vacation we’ve got planned next week.
I’m taking my two piece on vacation – I might even leave my one piece at home. Yep, I’m going all in. WHO CARES what my beach bod looks like – or doesn’t look like. My kids don’t care. Paul doesn’t care. Why should I? When the only other people on the beach don’t know me, my name or even what state I live in.
Which, incidentally could be answered with either a.) Kansas or b.) a constant state of anxiety.
That’s a mom thing, right?
That’s not to say it won’t take a whole boatload of courage. But I’m going to suck it up buttercup, cause I’m not going to miss making those memories with my kids or with my family just because I have a little flub around the edges and some stretch marks.
I will try to quit over analyzing and overthinking everything. So much easier said that done.
I worry that with the changes we are making to the blog and with the new topics I’m covering, that you guys aren’t going to want to come back. I worry that I’m too weird or that I’m oversharing, or maybe I’m not sharing enough?
And I’d be lying if I said the thought hasn’t crossed my mind to walk away from the DDD blog entirely and focus on myself and my family. But I can’t do that. I wouldn’t do that, and I couldn’t. And even if I did, I would find myself bored within a week – trying to find something – anything to occupy my time. So here I sit, typing away. And here YOU sit, reading it. So, it’s a win-win right? What am I worried about?
I need to quit fearing change. Nothing gets better without trial and error and CHANGE. It is inevitable. Change will happen as surely as the weather changes, as the wind changes, and as surely as someone out there is going to pick up my snow globe and give it a furious shake.
Thank you for being here, for growing with us and learning with us. I must say that for the past two years or so I haven’t had the fun I had with blogging when I first started seven years ago. I can’t say why exactly, I can’t put my finger on it. But I’m going to change it. I have no idea what I’m doing, but I’m doing it.
Bear with me over the next couple of weeks – my entire family is in for a scary, wild ride and I will need all the support we can get. I’ll share more when and if I can – but I appreciate you, and I want you to know that.